Focus

Well last week I had an "impressive" infection of strep throat. Thankfully (and unexpectedly), my medical insurance doesn't run out until the end of the year, so we were able to take care of it with minor dips into my savings account. It was a huge blessing to not have to shell out hundreds of dollars for a doctor's visit.

Overall, the past few weeks have been pretty overwhelming. Both academically, physically, and relationally. I am being pressed to my limits in many different areas, and honestly, it's making me kind of cranky. On top of all these exertions, I haven't been filling myself up again.

We had a devotional the other morning about Martha and Mary and I came to the realization that throughout all this Biblical study, all this going out in God's name, all this friendship building and socially interacting...despite the focus on Christ, I haven't spent any actual time at Jesus' feet. I have been bustling around like Martha, keeping busy but not actually just sitting and basking in God's presence. It's a lame realization to come to, but a necessary one.

I think once that's straightened out, it will be easier to diligently face my schoolwork, to do grueling work projects with a smile, and to love on my peers even if they're annoying the crap out of me. So here it goes.