The Start of Something New

I decided to start writing again. I can't really say why…I mean I have a few theories. Nursing school is going to plunge me into a world of unknowns, and having an outlet for stress relief is…comforting, I suppose. Or it could be that I need a productive way to procrastinate. Or that i am self absorbed and want to whine or complain or applaud myself for the world to see. Whatever. I'm doing it.

So the first week…and a half: check. It was kind of like waiting for Christmas, the emotional build-up, the nerves, the not being able to sleep the night before, and the spending of LOTS of money. Then BAM it's here and it's crazy and it's over. The first day at least.

I'm realizing that I am going to have to really discipline myself here. Time management is not a strong point of mine, and I've always been able to pretty much get away with it and BS my way through whatever I slacked off on. Not this time. I mean, what we're learning now is critical. It could save or cost someone's life someday (and I'm not just trying to be dramatic…for the most part). So I want to know it and retain it and put all the pieces together.

I feel totally inept, and I don't think that feeling's going away anytime soon, but I have to let it motivate rather than discourage. And if anyone wants to buy me pie and hold up flash cards for me every once in a while I wouldn't say no. :)